Adjusting to mommy hood

First off, I want to say that I couldn't be more happier to be a mommy!!!

  As anyone who knows me would tell you, I have Always wanted to be a mommy. I have felt it was my calling in life for many years, to the point that I would get mad at Lance for wanting to wait so long to start our family. I had always had the dream of being married a year and then promptly starting our family. Looking back now, I can honestly say that I am glad that we waited. We were able to devote time and effort into our marriage, provide a stable home, and appreciate being parents so much more...

  With that being said, I can now say that I am scared senseless...I hate to say it(but yet again a lot of people knew this) newborns have always intimidated me!!! I love being a mom and wouldn't trade my baby for anything in the world, but I wish that the newborn stage would hurry by. Everyone tells me to enjoy this stage because it does fly by, and I feel so guilty for wishing it to. Does this make me a bad mother?? Does this mean that I wasn't ready to be a mommy?? To me the answer is NO! to the first and a duh to the other! A lot of wonderful mothers did not enjoy the newborn stage. That does not mean that they did not love there children. I fall more in love with Tarja every single day, but I do know that you are never truly ready to be a parent. Sure it looks easy enough looking at someone else with children. But until you are the one wrestling with the lack of sleep, up to your eye balls in dirty diapers, and decoding a newborn is harder than decoding the Davinci Code. But then it happens...they give you the widest toothless grin. Your heart turns to goo and you think that you can make it one more day, one more sleepless night, and before you know it, the newborn phase is just a memory. I have decided to start blogging for several reasons. One is to share the joys and adventures of motherhood with people, second is so that when things seem there hardest I can write about it today and laugh at it tomorrow.  Even though I am not a fan of the newborn stage, and I have one of the best babies I could have ever imagined...I know that this to shall pass and I am only human. Everyday I learn something new and everyday that passes the newborn stage is one step closer to being over! =] So everyone please pray for me and words of wisdom are greatly appreciated. Til next time...Take care and God bless. And thank you for letting me ramble your ears off!